An alien from Mars exploring the Earth

After a long time of trying to to heal myself from my childhood traumas, I realize a lot of things.

The most important thing is that I realize how badly I treated myself. I thought that it was unconditional love that I gave to others, but it wasn’t. I tried too hard on myself to please other people and I had the fear of receiving, because I thought I wasn’t worth it. Well, it’s not true at all. No love brings you pain and makes you feel bad about yourself, makes you doubt yourself and wonder if you are enough or if you deserve to be loved. If you don’t know how to love yourself, you will never feel enough. I was a really bad lover to myself. I didn’t know how to love, because I didn’t really know what love is.

Now I accept that it’s not so important to prove what is right or wrong in a conflict, but I don’t want to avoid conflicts. I just want to tell the other person what I have to say, because that’s my feeling and opinion at that time. I don’t want to avoid a deep heart-to-heart conversation, even if it’s difficult to handle. Is it a real relationship if we don’t tell other people what we think or how we feel in order to keep the atmosphere ‘positive’ and ‘harmonious’? I don’t want a fake relationship, whatever relationship it is.

What is meant for you will find its way. If it isn’t, leave it. Don’t ever get attached to anything. Each of us was born to enjoy our life, not to suffer. We have our rights to be happy, to choose our peace over anything else. If you suffer, it’s not love. True love brings you strength, not pain. You deserve to be happy and to live your life to the fullest.

You have your own way of living your life. You write your own story. People don’t know what you’ve been through to get where you are at, and so do you. Everyone is different. Everyone is unique. You belong to you and no one else.